How are we here right now?
I feel like you were just born. You are my baby. My warrior child. My sickly baby who never seems sick. My champ.
I remember when your dad and I found out we were pregnant with you. I was scared and nervous and really unsure. We’d lost two babies before you and I didn’t know what this pregnancy would hold.
I was blessed with an amazing OB/GYN who said to me on the first day we met that I “would have this baby.”
She was right.
It wasn’t an easy pregnancy. It was filled with drugs to keep you in and force my body to cooperate. I remember when my placenta started to separate- it was so scary and deflating, but you rallied.
Because you’re a fighter.
No food allergy, no eczema, no “ashtma-like symptoms,” nothing can stop you. For “no weapon formed against you shall prosper” and they haven’t.
I get so scared sometimes and you? You just smile and laugh and play and be… you.
You bring us more joy on any given day than we could have ever imagined.
Your dad can’t wait for you to play football. Your sister adores you and loves to be all. over. you. You? You can’t stand it. You like your space (and I can understand that), but you also like to push your sister and hit her… all things we’re working on.
You like cereal and blueberries and oatmeal… well. You like food. ALL of the foods that you can eat, you will eat in excess.
You like to climb and run and say “no thank you!” You get really frustrated when you can’t have your way and you are saying more new words each day.
Yesterday, when I asked you where you were going you said “this way!” I thought that’s new. You are independent and often say “no, Mommy! I do it!”
Yes. You can do it.
And you will.
I love you, CJ. You were never a question. We wanted you before we even knew you.
And my God, I can’t even imagine our lives without you.
Rally on, my love. I can’t wait to see what your second year has in store.
With all of my heart,