Dear CJ, How are we here right now? I feel like you were just born. You are my baby. My warrior child. My sickly baby who never seems sick. My champ. I remember when your dad and I found out we were pregnant with you. I was scared and nervous and really unsure. We'd lost two babies before you and I didn't know what this pregnancy would hold. I was blessed with an amazing OB/GYN who said to me on the first day we met that I "would have this baby." She was right. It wasn't an easy pregnancy. It was filled with drugs to keep you in and force my body to … [Read more...]
Archives for October 2014
Self-Care
At some point I stopped taking care of myself. I'm not sure if that happened when we left Ohio, after we got here, or somewhere in between- I honestly can't pinpoint a specific moment. I stopped running. I disconnected from people. I became so engulfed in what my family needed. I got a second job and was really focused on paying off the baby's medical bills (among other things) and putting us in a place where we could finally be comfortable. Then I got tired. And I started to eat more. And then I got really tired- I couldn't stay up past 8:30ish and I was … [Read more...]